I recently finished reading Claire Cook’s The Wildwater Walking Club: Step By Step. It was a fun, easy read. Exactly what I wanted.
The book is meant to make readers feel good. To transport readers into another world, Noreen’s world, as she walks with Tess and Rosie and navigates life as a newly certified health coach.
So, why then, were there times I felt sad?
Why did this feel-good book leave me feeling a bit down at times?
It took me a while to figure it out.
And then I realized – it’s the walking. (Which is a big part of the book.)
I no longer know the easy joy and pleasure that comes from going on a daily walk.
I do continue to walk each day in my neighborhood, but they’re not always joyful. Not always pleasurable.
I walk. Certainly not at a quick pace. And not to count my steps.
But to walk. To exercise. To spend time with my family outdoors. To observe our neighborhood.
But my walking is … I struggle for the right word. Difficult? (Sometimes.) Unpredictable? (Sometimes.) Pain-inducing? (Sometimes.) Exhausting. (Sometimes.)
I don’t always experience more pain after a walk, but sometimes I do.
Sometimes I experience random pain during a walk. A step off a curb that sends a jolt up and down my left leg.
A sudden gripping pain in my calf, that causes me to stop and wait and hope it will pass so I can continue walking. But then the walking has a bit of limping to it.
If I walk while in pain, it’s still walking.
And so I keep doing it.
Because some days are better than others.
And I walk, step by step, hoping for one of those better-pain days.