Lately, I have been thinking a lot about the term “spoonie.” 

The term “spoonie” comes from the Spoon Theory, both of which are familiar terms if you’re a member of the chronic illness community. Basically, the Spoon Theory is an analogy used to describe the amount of physical and mental energy a person has available each day. The theory was developed by Christine Miserandino. While out to lunch with a friend, Ms. Miserandino used the spoons on the table to explain to her friend what it’s like to live with a chronic illness, in her case lupus. Each spoon represents a finite amount of energy. Each day you may wake up with a different amount of spoons, yet there are still certain tasks that are expected to be completed on a regular basis — showering, getting dressed, preparing a meal. While a healthy person may begin the day with an unlimited amount of spoons and uses only one spoon at a time for the most basic tasks of the day, a spoonie may start the day with only five total spoons and has to make decisions about which tasks absolutely must be completed that day and which tasks can be skipped. Because when the spoons are gone, so too, is a person’s energy to do anything else. 

For a long time, I didn’t consider myself a spoonie simply because I didn’t have the option of paying attention to my lack of spoons. My son still needed to be picked up from school, library books needed to be returned, dinner needed to be prepared. 

Though I have spent more than a decade as a chronic illness patient, I still haven’t figured out when to push through and do something despite my pain and fatigue and when to pay attention to my body and acknowledge I just can’t do something.

It’s not easy navigating this life. Thankfully, I have help.  

Last week, I had a Zoom conversation with Sandra Postma, a Book and Spoonie Coach, offering “guidance for writers with a chronic or mental illness or disability.” This was our second session, and as with my first session, I left this session thinking about a couple of re-framing statements Sandra shared with me. 

This week, I’d like to share two of Sandra’s brilliant statements with you:

“I am not a burden, my illness is.”

“Alongside my illness I am ..”

I’m thinking a lot about these statements. Thinking about how I can use these statements to help me be more kind and gentle with myself. 

Maybe they will help you, too. 

(Just so you know – Sandra knows I’m sharing this information and has given her consent for this blog. You can learn more about Sandra and the work she does on her website.)